For many, the most difficult part of the personal journey into remembering, or Spiritual Enlightenment, is self acceptance.
The Warrior Path of Self Acceptance
Self acceptance is something that I personally have difficulty with and it is something that many others in my groups are expressing as a difficulty for them.
Physical Symptoms for the Spiritual Warrior
As the thrust of this work is making self realisation real in the physical body, I have found that the deeper I go into the acceptance of myself, the more real I make it .. (or rather the more I am prepared to admit to myself), the more kinaesthetic reactions I find coming from my body.
Making the realization on the Self, real
As I talk to myself, as I dictate into this computer answers to questions I have been asked, I find that I am experience tingling, shivering, shaking, aches and pains in the sacral area, blurred vision, goodly headaches .. etc. etc.
The pain of holding on
My physical body that sits here in this chair is the manifestation of thoughts, feelings, emotions and the unrecognised thoughts projected onto me by others .. holding patterns taken on as patterns of shock and buried below a level of self denial for 50 odd years of this lifetime in this body.
With this philosophy I am able to welcome with joy the episodes of physical discomfort, at the same time recognising that the thoughts feelings and emotions that I am experiencing are, in fact, the release of previous patterns. These are manifestations of the lifeforce energy of my Self .. which some call Kundalini.
When I feel the need to cry and find that I hesitate to do so, I know that these are the hesitations of the child who used to be disciplined for expressing his tears. The fear I experience in this moment is the fear that I will be disciplined .. and the hesitation stems from that fear. In allowing the tears, I am accepting of the child who was taught denial and another level of that denial is brought to consciousness for reconciliation.
The permission to learn to crawl again
There are still times that I have to remind myself that it is ok for me to experience what am experiencing. It's a little like learning to walk. First you have to learn to crawl, then you start to stand up, then, very carefully holding onto someone or something you explore the possibility of putting one foot very gingerly in front of the other. As confidence grows, you're able to let go of the support of start to walk, falteringly, for yourself. Very soon, you find out that you can run.
The difference is that now, through self acceptance, I have the knowledge and understanding of my life so far. What I have to do is to tell my body that its OK to run with this new knowledge. To do that I have to learn to crawl, to stand up, to take those few first faltering steps, and very soon, maybe, I will be able to run.
These are new processes, a new understanding and outlook on life, which my body has to understand. It's got to understand that it is safe to be at one with my head, for in the past, for its survival, the head has had to make rules of behaviour which have been unsafe or uncomfortable for the body.
"Self Acceptance - The Path of the Spiritual Warrior" was written, produced and © by Christopher Wynter and Transpersonal LifeStreams®, Tasmania, Australia.